My life in UK.......
2 years living in Uk is not so long as i had first imagine..bt what i had gone thru these 2 years is not totally bitter yet most of the time i did feel loneliness...
bt i really feel i am the lucky one can come here and if i was given the second chance i would choose to come here without hesitation ...
this is the place where i lost my confidence the most and this is the place where i had struggle to abandon my kia su attitude in order to keep myself sane when come to exam...bt at the end my effort paid and i had graduated with second upper...never in my life feel so happy when receiving the result ...most of the time i only felt that that was the result i was obliged to get in order not to disappoint my parents.. (weird?? i feel the same too..hihi)
there was one time my confidence was so low that i had intended to run away from manchester with any method i could ...as all these year my confidence came mainly from my good perfirmance in academy..that is the only way i had excell compare to other throughout my growing path...
bt i could not confide to anyone ard me as they all were so good in result they gt and they just could not really understand how hard for me to accept the truth..how dump i had become..
Not only that bt also i cant really mix well with people surronunding me evrytime went out 'socialising'...either in pub or party..
i was not really i at the time ..i was too quiet, i always nod my head and evrytime ppl approach me to speak i would think is he talking to me or just wana gt to know my best buddy...it is only when i spent my holiday in newcastle and gt to know a new bunch of frens that is the time i realise that people with different character tend to mix tgt..and one dun have to be excell in academy in order to have confidence..just be urself and i dun have to please anyone or care for what they think abt me..if u wanna ppl to like you first you must care them with your true heart.
though i am still clumsy in caring other, in showing my concern, and expressing my thought, i am better now..thanks to my parent who never give me up when i was so depressed at that time..luckily never go into depression..=)
and i had grown up,,from a little gal blur in all things,especially in direction to a person who is now expert in looking map!!haha, that is because i was forced to bring my parents ard paris and london without any assistance from others, while at the same time have to think thousand ways of saving money and making sure my parents were comfortable during the journey..luckily all went smo0thly wihout having any big trouble..bt i realise that my mum and sister has changed a lot ..my mum hate travelling bt she din complain much this time as she can sense my tense i suppose ,.n my little sister has turned mature so much that she is the one cheer me up and shared my worry ..love my family so much though i always hope my parent can express their love in more overt way..may be it is the culture problem..n i do envy those old english couple who still hold each other's hand so tightly..oo..their love seem so deep to each!!so lovely !!
2 years living in Uk is not so long as i had first imagine..bt what i had gone thru these 2 years is not totally bitter yet most of the time i did feel loneliness...
bt i really feel i am the lucky one can come here and if i was given the second chance i would choose to come here without hesitation ...
this is the place where i lost my confidence the most and this is the place where i had struggle to abandon my kia su attitude in order to keep myself sane when come to exam...bt at the end my effort paid and i had graduated with second upper...never in my life feel so happy when receiving the result ...most of the time i only felt that that was the result i was obliged to get in order not to disappoint my parents.. (weird?? i feel the same too..hihi)
there was one time my confidence was so low that i had intended to run away from manchester with any method i could ...as all these year my confidence came mainly from my good perfirmance in academy..that is the only way i had excell compare to other throughout my growing path...
bt i could not confide to anyone ard me as they all were so good in result they gt and they just could not really understand how hard for me to accept the truth..how dump i had become..
Not only that bt also i cant really mix well with people surronunding me evrytime went out 'socialising'...either in pub or party..
i was not really i at the time ..i was too quiet, i always nod my head and evrytime ppl approach me to speak i would think is he talking to me or just wana gt to know my best buddy...it is only when i spent my holiday in newcastle and gt to know a new bunch of frens that is the time i realise that people with different character tend to mix tgt..and one dun have to be excell in academy in order to have confidence..just be urself and i dun have to please anyone or care for what they think abt me..if u wanna ppl to like you first you must care them with your true heart.
though i am still clumsy in caring other, in showing my concern, and expressing my thought, i am better now..thanks to my parent who never give me up when i was so depressed at that time..luckily never go into depression..=)
and i had grown up,,from a little gal blur in all things,especially in direction to a person who is now expert in looking map!!haha, that is because i was forced to bring my parents ard paris and london without any assistance from others, while at the same time have to think thousand ways of saving money and making sure my parents were comfortable during the journey..luckily all went smo0thly wihout having any big trouble..bt i realise that my mum and sister has changed a lot ..my mum hate travelling bt she din complain much this time as she can sense my tense i suppose ,.n my little sister has turned mature so much that she is the one cheer me up and shared my worry ..love my family so much though i always hope my parent can express their love in more overt way..may be it is the culture problem..n i do envy those old english couple who still hold each other's hand so tightly..oo..their love seem so deep to each!!so lovely !!
oo..above is my graduation photo..pictures paint thousand words, so i save my breath not in elaborating my feeling>>>hihi
