Monday, July 03, 2006

less than 2 months before i will go to uk, starting to feel nervous going there ,worry that i will become quieter than now......but i noe it definitely is a journey that full with challenges & a crucial step which willl decide my future....
Now keeping to think how the condition will be without me being here....will anyone notice my absence here aft i go to uk?? perhaps it is a good start for me to forget the pass that i couldn't throw away from my memory....three years aldy it had been in my mind...but i noe it is just a matter of time for me to heal from hurt....cause feeling will grow or become weaker as the time pass....that is wat i truely believe....

my result had been released few days ago -4a1B....but i dunnoe how to describe my feeling....unlike my fren who get the same result, jumping n shouting, i can't feel the happiness in my heart...instead i feel like i only fulfill my task, my duty......sometimes i wonder am i too greedy??.....

still remember the day before the resulde relesed i was so helpless.....but this time i told no one coz i noe there will be no shoulder for me to lean when in uk.....it is time for me to be more independent.....n wat make me feel proud is that this final exam i dun need my brother's assistance & though i still cried, but cry lesser n found myself actually i can be stronger than wat i thought...unlike a level that time keep troubling people...haha

now i cant wait for my penang trip on wed.... hopefully it wil be fun n siok!!!=)