the first exam paper i did really badly..that time really hope have someone can come n console me...but this time i chose not to call anyone n cry ....cz there is no point if i keep continue like that..korkor still is my mental supporter, cz everytime i did badly ffor exam, he is the one inspire me..that day cried too, but cried is normal to me..as no exam so far in my life i never cry..if u find one day i never cry for my exam,,then i am something wrorng...

but aft the first paper, i though i will be very sad...but duunnoe y i seem numb to it...today my second paper did badly again, though not as bad as the 1st one...emm...guilty just now wen my papa called..all these while i used to be very lucky in the exam but definitely not this time...manchester system is totally different ,..u can never predict wat it will come out in the exam..so u must study earlier..this is the lesson i learn...but i hope the price i need to pay wont be so high...

this exam i wanna learn how to control my emotion..this time i did better cz not like last time keep calling ppl just to make me feel better...a small improvement oo>>>still got last paper...yeah..after exam will play card overnight with frens ..sure willl be fun , right???=)

i really dunnoe how to overcome my fear now//...

my mind refuse to absorb any info, refuse to study..but i cant go to sleep as well..i try to relax..talking to frens ard me..but seem like not use to me as everyone here also very stressful..

i dun wanna show my depressed face to ppl ard me to make them more stressful, ii hope i can inspire ppl to study but i cant do that..instead, i am a burden ...this is not wat i want..

i dun dare to tell the truth to my korkor n family on the phone, pretending that i am strong enuff..pretanding that i am hardworking enuff....

ytd call to korkor .thinking that he is the only one can inspire me study, but i become more stressful aft that..realising more i need to study..

marina go back here will be better ma???she wil also very stressful i think///cant pass my fear to ppl ard me.....

overcome my fear, i wanna overcome it...

Home letter more precious than tonnes of gold

Receiving letter from home yesterday..Dunnoe why tears naturally dropping from my eyes....at that moment just feel that my empty heart suddenly feel warmer...

the same also occurred wen receive tey tey's xmas card/....but not crying that time.//=)but really appreciate it...

now only realise jia1 shu1 di3 wan4 jin1-home letter more precious than tonnes of gold

Really excited coz my family , though i noe they love me, but they never say it out..

thse few days my heart keep palpitating fastly cz exam left 2 weeks//..even aft talking with frens felt better but aft a while nervous again..

really dunnoe wat i am scared of.exam is not everything, but still, it is a major thing in my life thus far..

gambate >>gambate , keep gambateing..lih choon!!!